So I started on Day two, I think it was premature. I was supposed to complete a kind gesture. I spend all day being kind and it wasn't forced upon. I bought Dawn a nice card and left it on her window, but then in Target she snapped at me for telling her to call down. I walked off to avoid the conflict and it got turned on me later. I'm not big on being spoken to in a tone that is aggressive. But I know I have done the same to her, so I must keep the finish line in my sights.
Patience and kindness are attributes that do not come natural to me, I love my wife and girls so much. But when I get aggravated I tend to let it show which I know is not the reaction I am supposed to have. Being patient with women, when my personality is not catered to that kind of attitude is hard. I want to do this right, so I don't know if i should move forward or not. I will press on though, Dawn has surgery tomorrow so time will tell how this week will end. I am desperate to have the heart that Jesus had, I know it is impossible want I just want God to bless me with grace for everyone around me.
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